Tuesday, January 31, 2012

A New Book of Mine Titled "Changeling"

Prologue

Looking back on my life I can see the many mistakes I have made. I can see the hurt that I and the others around me have had because of my actions. But perhaps it’s those memories that keep me striving for something more – something just barely within my grasp if I try hard enough. And yet… and yet I still feel as if I will never reach there. As I lay in my bed, thinking about the past and what the future may have in store for me, I wonder how I’m supposed to go on when life seems so hopeless. As I slowly blink and look up at the blanket of stars, I remember why I do what I do and my promise to myself.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Why is doing what's right so hard?

So, yesterday I told one of my roommates off for breaking the honor code. I was nice but strong about it (or at least I hope I was nice) and now none of them will really talk to me unless they want to complain or be a smart mouth. I was just following what I knew to be true and I'm now being punished for it. Can I say not fair?!?! I mean, them being like that is not really an incentive for keeping to do the right. We are all adults. Can't we just get over ourselves and act like civilized human beings? Obviously not for some people. I'm trying to be, but I don't know if it's working. At least I have my great friends' dorm to crash at whenever I want. Thanks Brittany Farnsworth and Karen Baldwin! Don't know what I would be doing without you two right now!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Trials

Just when I thing that everything in life is going well, the world chews me up and spits me back out, proving me dead wrong. Yeah, I haven't had the most amazing week of my life but it was still going good. Untill BYU's system kicked me out and I got "dropped out" of school. And it was the last day to sign up for classes for Winter 2012. Why does this keep happening to me? Can I ever have an extended period where everything goes well and life is happy? Apparently not.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Frustrations

It's one thing when someone you have only heard about does something wrong. It's another thing for someone you actually know to have done something wrong. And yet another for that wrong thing to be completely against the honor code contract signed at the begining of the semester.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012

It's a new year and though everything should be grand, happy, and new, I am worried for what the future might bring. My life is filled with so much uncertainty I do not know what to worry about first. I need to finish packing for Winter Semester 2012 at BYU-I. I need to finish signing up for classes which is becoming more and more difficult as time passes. But out of all the things to be worried about, family comes first. My grandma is in the hospital with Hepititus C and kidney failure. She is 40-some pounds and can hardly move. Everyday is uncertain and I wait for news of her, fearing the worst. This has become a time for me to turn to my Heavenly Father in prayer and Jesus Christ for comfort. The greatest thing I have to be grateful for is my faith in the LDS church. Nothing could stay my fears more than that.